Can I be both mommy and artist? I am sure some might say, "of course" Still others might say, "no way!" because my son should be my focus. What has the response been historically? In theory I think I do because my art is as much a part of me as being a mother is. But, can it physically be done. As of yet I don't have a very good track record. My studio is growing cobwebs, my shop is stagnant. I am lamenting my absence from this blog, my studio, my art. I can't get any work done. I am not regretful because I am spending time in the most delightful company. On the other hand I am a bit sad. Part of me is dormant. I am a Pollyanna so I say dormant, because the wheels are turning a stray sleepy idea makes it into my sketchbook from time to time. I am harboring ideas in the folds of my brain. A sweet little toddler is the most wonderful time and energy suck I am just longing for some balance. I have my eye on my prize. My hubby will be finished with work for the year and will have a two months of work time to myself. I plan on working full time. Hubby is going to help me organize and make my studio functional. I have a bucket-load of projects on my docket I only hope I can get some of them accomplished, it will be so hard to be out of the company my sweet little companion for hours at a time but I need to do this for me, for him. He is my focus, a healthy driven mommy with goals and a voice must be worth something, right?
Is this wrong, should I be feel guilty? Do I have a right to have my art and my family at the same time? There is a film that was shown in town recently that unfortunately I have not gotten to see but is something I will most likely purchase, maybe have a showing for friends. Check out Who Does She Think She Is? I am and artist and a mother and wife roles I cherish and need. I may not be doing the best job at any of these but I do have a plan to try to bring them all into harmony. To make myself somewhat accountable I will be outlining and reporting plans and accomplishments as they come. This will be a summer of my time to do as much as I can.
